Driving home from work feeling extremely joyful and powerful and blessed. It's taken me a long time to realize that having experienced the ultimate example of heartache in losing my father so young, I am fearless about those I love and our mortality. I am so keenly acute to the growth and learning experience that was forced upon me. It makes all the other heartbreak and experiences in my present day fail in comparison. Everything can be put into perspective and every negative experience in my life is welcome - I know the value in each sorrowful moment. I wouldn't be who I was today, strive to do what I love and sing with emotion the way that I do if it weren't for the hardships I have encountered. I love to love things and I have the ability to dive head first into any and everything I chose because I know that even from the worst comes better. Thinking of the "big picture" and living a life that feeds your soul is not something that happens just by choice- sometimes it takes a push or a powerful experience to encourage this type of vision. Luckily for me, I've lived most of my life unknowingly driven and shaped by things others may pity themselves over. I love without regret, I love without conditions, and learn from each mistake. There's no feeling in the world that hasn't been put into a song. I can't wait to share my story through music and continue to grow and change. I'm excited about my future and I am aware of how blessed I am being able to put my toes in sand, dive into the Atlantic, sing and play with children, and share a love and loss within me through music. When you feel like you deserve the best, somehow the world magically places you where you need to be and who you need to be with. Only with a love like this for ourselves can we truly know the joy of living. That's all I've got for now. Time to pick up some buds and catch another's band. Don't be afraid to jump, you're better off if you don't land on your feet :)
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